Sunday, September 17, 2006!
HandWritten on; 1:00 AM
on a random note.we went to watch the NUS DANCE ENSEMBLE performace yesterday night at the University Cultural Centre.it was worth every bit of the money we paid for it.it was so wonderful.amazing technicalities the right energy the just-right amount of hotness and ohmygod.
MS SABRINA WAS AMAZING.she is my idol man.and she is so so cute that we love her so much(:
when i get home.everything is falling apart.
i have a terrible grandmother at home who rolled her eyes at me (hard) twice today and ignored me and walked away when i call her.she is such a suckass.
sometimes i wonder if i am sinning by being so unfilial.but when i come to think of it.she made me suffered so muchh.im just wasting days of my life here with her.which can never come back.she made me cry so many times but i've nw realised its not worth my tears over her though sometimes i still cant help it.she made me tremble and made me feel like i was absolutely worthless.she called me and my sister and my brother names.vulgarities.she
taught my brother vulgarities by saying them in front of him.she made me feel so much fear and nervousness.i would rather say a LA speech in front of my class a dozen times all over and i would think it wouldnt feel half as bad.or half as torturing.she wastes every day of my life for the past four years and going,worrying about her mood and how she will react and how i should react to her.thinking about her tires me out.because of her many of my brain cells died i would suppose.because of her im not leading the kind of life i want.
just thinking about all these.my guiltyness vanishes.i mean.i have like the perfect friends the perfect dancemates and i totally enjoy time with my mother brother and sister when we're relaxed and all having fun.and you are there.ruining my life.over and over again.
tell me people if im being too much.i would like to be corrected rather than continue doing what i shouldnt do.
): everything would just get better if you were here.
if only.
